Mind Scraps: Blogging Cures Blocked Bowels

Okay. This is getting absolutely ridiculous. But, it is proven through my own self-study:

I don’t write/blog = my bowels get blocked.

I do write/blog = my bowels function.

Thus, I really need to find a way to get paid for my mental musings… MY HEALTH DEPENDS ON IT!

Which, ultimately means, I need to be paid to travel, since well my mental musings are inspired, sharpened and continually developed through the wisdom I obtain through my experiences in travel. Mwahahahahahahaha…

But I’m serious.

For days my bowels have been blocked again and my health was going to the pits… again. I returned my focus back to writing on my blog again… and instantly I become “unblocked.”

Now, it’s not just my spiritual being, but my physical being insisting that I blog. But, I don’t get paid for this… something’s got to give. :S

I put it out there… make it happen Universe! 🙂

Mind Scraps: Challenged to Become Divine Lovers?

A brief email from Caballo Blanco inspired me to respond with this:

Challenges are the training ground for restoring us to become the divine, loving beings we are destined to be.

Posting the quote as my status on Facebook (ironically enough if you see my prior post) instigated this:

Me: I do believe I’m learning more and more how to comfort myself…

Radt Dujarric: pa na platano y pa vacio jaiva!

Me: okay that’s kind of slang/alternate meaning so I’m having difficulty understanding it…

Radt Dujarric: its a matter of time B-)

“People with courage and character always seem sinister to the rest. Since the bourgeois prefers comfort to pleasure, convenience to liberty, and a pleasant temperature to the deathly inner consuming fire.. Solitude is independence.” ~Hermann Hesse

Me: I agree with much of that. A strong quote. But in the end I ask… is independence what we should truly be after? Or rather, is it LOVE?

Now LOVE doesn’t comply with preferring “comfort to pleasure, convenience to liberty, and a pleasant temperature to the deathly inner consuming fire” but it also doesn’t comply with “solitude.”

So perhaps instead of it being “A” or “B”… it’s simply “C”?

Radt Dujarric: depending on what kind of love… we all have our secret garden and sometimes love consumes your own by sacrificing it for the most common of the interests.
if by loving you manage to share the dreams besides the bed and remain being yourself … and keep your own inner space for yourself… then you’ve found it all.

Me: Wow. Beautiful Radt.

Mind Scraps: ‘The Social Network’ Suggests Facebook “Friends” are an Illusion

Facebook Feels Unfriendly Toward Film It Inspires

Behind the scenes… [Mark] Zuckerberg and his colleagues have been locked in a tense standoff with the filmmakers [of The Social Network], who portray Facebook as founded on a series of betrayals, then fueled by the unappeasable craving of almost everyone for “friends” — the Facebook term for those who connect on its online pages — that they will never really have.

Mr. Zuckerberg, at 26 a billionaire, and his associates are wary of damage from a picture whose story begins with the intimacy of a date night at Harvard seven years ago and depicts the birth of a Web phenomenon in his dorm room…

In Mr. Sorkin’s telling, Mr. Zuckerberg is not so much villain as antihero, a flawed human being whose deep need for acceptance becomes the driving force behind a Web site that offers the illusion of it…

Read the entire article by clicking here.

Wow… intriguing to say the least. But even if it’s all true, perhaps Zuckerberg simply hit a chord that struck with the populace. Perhaps, even if all this IS true, the resulting “connections” don’t have to be bound to “illusion.”

Personally, I can attest I’ve had TRUE friendships strengthened thanks to the communication ease of Facebook and TRUE friendships even SPRING purely from the technology of Facebook.

Now, on a side note, I DO NOT AGREE, however, that Zuckerberg should claim rights to uploaded photos, videos, or whatever…

Friendship Poem

For my birthday, a dear friend I met through Couchsurfing in Cancun wrote me the following:

Lamneto mucho no estar hoy contigo en este dia tan especial…. Tu cumpleaños!

So much I lament not being abel to be with you on this special day… your birthday!

Aveces siento que eres un angel que vino a iluminar mi vida y la de los demás Csurfers y lo

Sometimes I feel that you are an angel that came to illuminate my life and the lives of other Couchsurfers and the

Ultimo que quisiera es que llegue el dia en que no te vea mas porque se que tarde o temprano te iras de Mexico

Last thing I would want is to come the day that I don’t see you anymore because I know that sooner or later you will leave Mexico

Rompiendo los corazones de todos los que te amamos, eres una gran mujer y una gran amiga con un

Breaking the hearts of all that love you, you are a great woman and a great friend with a

Alma que brilla con una luz tan hermosa para alimentar la esperanza de mas personas como tu y como yo.

Soul that shines with a light so beautiful it feeds the hope of more people like you and like me.

Feliz cumpleaños Hermosa

Happy birthday beautiful

te quiero muchisisisimo!!!!

I care about you so much!!!!

que rica amistad!!!

What a blessed friendship!!!

Thank you Victor. I love you with all my heart.

Mind Scraps: Frogs and Turtles, Princes and Princesses

“Do you have a notebook I could use,” I asked my friend Benny – Biologist Benny we call him. “Mine’s about filled up.”

That’s when he offered me The Blue Day Notebook. He had just started using it, but insisted on giving it to me. It’s a cute little blue book with a cute little frog motif. As you flip the pages, the little frog tumbles along the edge…

I opened it up to read:


Te quiero mucho mucho mucho. (I really really really care about you.)


Then I continued on to read the author’s introduction. Here is my favorite prose the author shared:

“True inspiration is everywhere, all the time. It’s in the objects on your desk, it’s in the flashing lights of an ambulance, it’s in the lyrics of your favorite song, it’s the way you hold someone’s hand, it’s the way a dog turns around twice before lying down to sleep. In other words, inspiration is seeing ordinary things in an extraordinary way – imagining what things would be like if they were somehow… different.”

“What is important is that you let your mind run free to consider new creative relationships and then have the decipline to put your thoughts down on paper.”

“To create interesting work you must live an interesting life.”


The night before last, Biologist Benny opened his heart to me and moved me to tears. He simply whispered the sweet words that anyone always longs to hear. Words like: special, unique, magic, light. I feel so blessed to have him in my life. He’s more than a friend, he’s a soulmate. I have discovered that we have not one soulmate… we have but billions and trillions. Every single being on this planet is a potential soulmate… we only have to open ourselves to see the light within. Benny is an enchanting person and I consider him one of my dearest friends. He is special.

Last night Benny led us on a magical excursion. From shore we silently marveled as the giant sea turtles emerged from the dark waters of the night and slowly crawled their way across the beach. Whips of sand began flying as the turtles stopped and began digging… digging their nests right there in the middle of Cancun’s tourist-trampled, white sand beaches. Then the stillness came and they did not move. The “trance” had begun. The conservationists slowly moved approached the turtles beckoning us to follow with care. Astonished we watched white, mucas-covered eggs pop out from behind the tortoise’s tail. The we helped gather the eggs in buckets, moving them new nests we had already dug in special nurseries built away from tourist trample. Hopefully, we’ve given some little new embryos the chance to survive, grow and hatch.

As we walked back from this incredible glimpse into the mysteries of nature, it was Victor’s turn to move me to tears. His words resembled Ben’s, but were spoken with Victor’s uniquely charming touch. Again my ears wrung with words like special, unique, magic, light and my heart swelled with love. “You really don’t know just how much you’ll be missed,” he told me. When I think of Victor I will always imagine the strong, young mahogany-colored warrior dancing with heart and soul.

Two Australian girls also accompanied us. Biologist Benny was hosting them through Couchsurfing. Benny had told me ahead of time that Grace and Zia were “encantadoras” (enchantresses). He was right. In less than 10 hours, these two young hippie girls who grew up on a commune out in the wilderness of Australia’s bush had also earned a very special place in my heart. Two powerful young women full of love and magic.

Of course, Perla was there. Throughout the day, her pure, sincere and unassumingly loving friendship provoked my eyes to moisten. She is as faithful and loving as man’s beloved best friend. A true spitfire in her own right. I adore her…

Love Note

Just as the tears dry up, the emotions wring my heart again, squeezing out yet more bittersweet tears.

I cannot describe the EXCITEMENT and ANTICIPATION I feel for this next, upcoming adventure… this move to L.A. I feel as if the seconds could not fly by fast enough. The seconds that separate him and I. He with the widest of grins and the giggliest of laughs. He that is always sprinkling the sparkling dust of laughter into my own eyes.

And yet, as the seconds tick away, I can’t help but feel how quickly my last few moments with some incredibly moving people I’ve met here in the Riviera Maya… are vanishing. I couldn’t put into words everything, all the beloved attributes that have made me fall completely head over heels in love for most amazing friends here. And I’m not going to try. My words couldn’t do their loveliness any justice.

Just please know…

Juan Carlos
CS Cancun Community

Each of you, in your own most unique and enchanting ways, have captured my heart. I love you guys… and I always will.

Dance Like No One is Watching…

Live like your last day
Drink like its water
Theres no tommorow
And you think no one can hear you
Raise your hands to be called on
You know all the answers
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
You dance like no-one’s watching
Sing ’til the song ends
The you sing some more
And we can hardly believe it
Words that flow from your mouth,
Drink like its water
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
Your the most beautiful thing that i’ve seen
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
You are an enigma walking
Make no excuses for the way that you carry on
And we can hardly believe it
Words that flow from your mouth
Drink like its water girl
Drink like its water girl
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
Your the most beautiful thing that i’ve seen
Your the most colourful thing that i’ve seen
You are so colourful


Mind Scraps: World Class Pro and Nothing Less!

What’s next?? Oh that seems to be the eternal question for me…

Answer? Typical. I don’t know. BUT, I do know… it’ll be WORLD CLASS! 😉

Please enjoy the following quotes!

Book: Guru

“Within each of us is a NATURAL PATH. Someone who ALIGNS themselves 100% to their PATH finds an EXTRAORDINARY sense of FLOW and ENERGY comes into their life or work.”

“Don’t trade movement for MOMENTUM.”

“The middle class trades time for money. The WORLD CLASS trades IDEAS that SOLVE PROBLEMS for money.”

Steve Siebold

“Amatuers tend to seek riches while PROS seek FULFILLMENT.”

“CHAMPIONS CREATE so much value in their QUEST for FULFILLMENT that they often develop substantial riches.”

“FULFILLMENT is a mental state CHAMPIONS experience as a result of their ELEVATED AWARENESS.”

“In essence, CHAMPIONS INVEST the necessary time and resources to DISCOVER what they LOVE to do and the FOCUS on doing it to the BEST of their ABILITY.” (This is what you were explaining to me… about you. I’ll be honest. The one ingredient to this I’ve struggled with thus far is FOCUS. The rest are in the bag. Wink wink.) “Their FULFILLMENT doesn’t come from the results of their ACTIONS but from the ACTIONS themselves.” (We both agreed on that one!)

“PROS seek FULFILLMENT first by LOVING what they do for a living.”

“The GREAT ONES have a sense of URGENCY because they are operating on a level of AWARENESS that constantly reminds us that the present moment is all any of us ever really have.” (HA! Just today a friend told me… ‘Laura. Chill. You always want action NOW. Slow down. Take your time. Thus HA! HA! HA! – Yes, that’s me gloating. – I can’t tell you how many times others have told me that I don’t have to do everything NOW. Pfffff… never listening to that advice again!)


“PROS tend to PURSUE LARGE, MAGNIFICENT VISIONS… they want to leave a LEGACY.”

“Make it your MISSION to DISCOVER the EMBERS that BURN within your SOUL.”

“PURSUE your DREAM BOLDLY and FIERCELY. It may be closer than you might think.”

“The real question to be answered is not the how-to but the WHY.”


“The great ones decide what they want, why they want it.”

“Obstacles are no match for a VISIONARY driven by RAW EMOTION.”

“Ordinary people are transformed into EXTRAORDINARY PERFORMERS who no longer recognize failure as an option.”

“Send the HARMONY of GREAT DESIRE vibrating through every fiber of your BEING. Find a task that will CALL FORTH your FAITH, your COURAGE, your PERSEVERANCE and your SPIRIT of SACRIFICE. Keep your hands and your SOUL CLEAN and your CONQUERING SPIRIT will flow freely.”

“Work smarter not harder. Learn from mentors and coaches.”

“Copy genius.”

“Instead of investing years in the school of hard knocks, the WORLD CLASS often reaches their heights by often standing on the shoulders of giants. CHAMPIONS are famous for building MENTOR teams who are already where they want to be… mentor teams GUIDE, TEACH, ADVISE and ENCOURAGE performers to THINK BIGGER and REACH HIGHER than ever before… MENTORS are continually prodding and pushing CHAMPIONS beyond their comfort zone.”

“COMMIT yourself to never ending PERSONAL GROWTH and DEVELOPMENT.”

“CHAMPIONS invest time in GETTING BETTER.” (you again)

“SCHOOL is never out for the GREAT ONES.”

“A never-ending cycle of SELF-EDUCATION is the centerpiece of WORLD-CLASS CONSCIOUSNESS.”

Bill Gove (The Father of Professional Speaking)

“When you’re doing something you LOVE to do the only REWARD you need is the EXPERIENCE of doing it.”

Walter Hailey

“The ultimate source of information and the whole world’s LIVING WISDOM lies in the minds of others… all you have to do is ASK.”

Back to Blogging with a Blast of Inspiration!

More than 75 days of blogging silence from yours truly. That’s… disappointing actually. But life has thrown me a few curve balls these past 2 1/2 months. You could say at least one of them smacked me dead center in the forehead… hence the proverbial “knockout” and “disappearing blog” act.

During the silence, lots of life has happened. To sum it up, you could say that I’ve had a more than a fistful of truly heart-movingly RICH experiences… that were all strung along a coarse strand of significant hardship and trial.

Yesterday, in fact, I took another hard hit. This one didn’t knock me out though. Rather, it knocked me back awake… at least I think it did.

Things haven’t been matching up. Opportunities, yes more than one, that seemed golden suddenly tarnished into fool’s gold.

Yesterday was the climax of the second “not gold but fool’s gold” enlightenment.

I’ll bypass the details about what happened with whom for now. That’s not what’s important. What’s important is learning and moving forward.

Learning and growing:

1. I’ve really got to stop trusting so wholeheartedly at the first “hello.” I offer my trust on a silver platter without doing my homework to see just whom it is I’m offering this fine delicacy. That’s just imprudent. Personal improvement goal number one: Stay open, willing, friendly and receptive but be more prudent and weary with whom I trust.

And if you think I’m talking about love… I’m not. I’m talking about work and employment.

2. See the warning signs. People leaving the company should be at least a yellow flag that prompts me to investigate “why.” People holding the exact same position they were holding six years ago, without the slightest change in “standard of living” or even upgraded equipment should be a blaring red flag. And there were more… with my “after the fact” perspective I see that so clearly now. Personal improvement goal number two: Interview the company even as they are interviewing you.

The bright-side:

In just two months I went from having experience solely in Journalistic Photography to having plenty of content for a solid portfolio in Lifestyle Photography and Wedding Photography. That of which I’m very proud. I learn fast and work even faster!

The surprise:

Yesterday, as I was trying to calm my emotions and meditate on what’s been happening I decided to turn to the greats for inspiration, look to the words of wise that have walked before me. Each time I’ve done that has marked a coming pivotal period in my growth, success and achievement. This time, instead of taking months to remember the inspirational quotes from world sages remedy, I remembered in the very same afternoon. Yes! A sign of growth! Well, my to-do’s reminded me actually. In a moment of distress I decided it was better to put this spring of hurt, negative energy toward something useful and good. Transform it. Thus, I decided to turn to the weary task of cleaning out my computer and hard drives (they’re bogged with lord know what.) During this, I stumbled upon some business mentoring articles I had saved. Since I had saved them I had never read them. I was always brushing them off: Later. Later. I’ll have more time to read them later. In my determination to clean out my hard drive and computer once and for all, I almost brushed by them once again. But, I paused and considered: This is where I need the most guidance right now. There is no time better than NOW. Read them!

Less than ten minutes in my spirits were lifted, my confidence restored and my drive to overcome not only renewed but SUPERCHARGED.

One of the very first quotes that jumped out at me while reading stopped me in my tracks:

“Within each of us is a NATURAL PATH. Someone who ALIGNS themselves 100% to their PATH finds an EXTRAORDINARY sense of FLOW and ENERGY comes into their life or work.”

Wait a minute! I just had that! I was just there!! During my last few days in Chihuahua and even more poignantly so during my first several weeks in the Riviera Maya I was nearly EXPLOSIVE with energy. Getting an average of 3-4 hours of sleep I night I quickly became the a CS social butterfly, got involved in photography projects, lined up not one but two jobs, completed daily runs along the shore of the emerald and sapphire colored sea, visited and charmed the tropical island of Isla Mujeres and kept up a very active night life… and I was feeling GREAT. The best shape of my life, the best health of my life…

Pffff. What happened??!! On the contrary the past two to three weeks I’ve felt drained of energy, unrefreshed as I woke up feeling worse than when I had gone to bed, little desire for my normal here-there-everywhere social life. Just zapped. Accordingly, the tension gathered, the health went downhill and I got grumpier at realizing I was getting grumpier. I never lost the “Que Rico!” but I was feeling it less and less. (Thanks to amazing friends they really kept blazing moments of it alive even amidst my period of waning energy.)

So what gives? I asked myself. I’ve definitely gone through a tough bout of trial so the zapped energy makes sense. Pffff I deserve a break. I reasoned. But I didn’t want to stop there. Why all the hardship and trial I wondered? What happened that made me suddenly plummet head first from the exhilarating heights of feeling an “EXTRAORDINARY sense of FLOW and ENERGY” in my life and work?

The blog.

I’ve had the blog for several years now. But, it wasn’t until Chihuahua that I decided to really start sharing the juicy stuff. The crazy stuff. The weird, Locura de Laura spiritual stuff. When I began really writing everything that I was feeling and experiencing not just “parts of it” is when I felt the blast of energy. I had even written about how I felt the call to write it all… now. Then, the blog went offline, the energy and flow peaked and I was on a fast-track to decent.

Wow. A powerful realization. I knew that writing and sharing and opening up was therapeutic. But geez, I didn’t realize the extent of which I need my blog for my own personal release and self-development. Maybe some of you out there read it. Maybe not. While I’m truly heartened and utterly touched to get the feedback I occasionally get, I just realized how much this blog is for me. My development, my growth, my health… me. Without it… I began holding everything within. Blocking my flow, which manifested both physically and in my external life experiences. I need to express and to express freely… my precious little blog lets me do that. She lets me blab and blab and blab and never once talks back and tells me “no,” “can’t,” “stop,” “you’re doing it wrong,” “you’re a failure.” She simple lets me share, express and be free to be in love… in love with this wonderful blue little planet I so adoringly call home.

Yelp! How excited I am to have my blog back!!!